I live in a small town, where there isn’t much to do.
By the time I was thirteen, I found it boring and started to hang out with the wrong people, which only lead to trouble.
I started smoking cannabis or weed, and I suffered the consequences.
For three years I went through hearing voices, seeing things that weren’t there and having panic attacks.
I was scared all the time and couldn’t sleep.
With all this going on, I got in trouble a lot a school and was sent to a non-mainstream school for disengaged Koori teens.
I also got in trouble with the police.
I was living at home with my mum, but I would run away a lot, to escape.
I guess this was my way of crying out for help.
But it took me two years to actually get help.
I was finally diagnosed with drug-induced schizophrenia and panic disorder.
I’d nearly ruined my life.
Because I’d been stupid and naive.
I’m now on medication and it has made a huge difference.
I decided to change my life for my mum.
I want a future for myself.
I’ve been clean for two years.
I am now doing Year 12 and hoping to become a criminal justice worker.
I am glad I got my life back together.
I’m happy that I’ve made my mum proud of how far I’ve come.
I can’t wait to show her how far I will go.
To talk to someone about mental health, remember that headspace.org.au, Lifeline (13 11 14), Kids Help Line (1800 55 1800) , Reachout (au.reachout.com) and BeyondBlue (beyondblue.org.au) are all good places to start.
Take a look at Shuarnee’s original Heywire entry here.
Also check the related topics:Cannabis Psychosis and other mental illnesses