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QLives: Scott’s Story (Bisexuality)
“I think we all have different parts of our personalities, and they come out a little bit more depending on who you’re hanging around with.
We’re at Sydney Town Hall, and we’re doing rep and rehearsal for acting school. We all think that a gay person acts in a certain way—very expressively, with the hands and the voice, and maybe seeming a bit more feminine. I think people thought I was gay in high school mainly because of the way that I spoke, in addition to the way I acted and my behaviour in general.
Towards turning 18, I kind of started to think that I liked guys. My mum did mention straight away that obviously, that means I’ll have HIV and I’m going to die of AIDS one day. I didn’t really think of it like that.
The first time I went out to Oxford Street was really fun, actually. It was a new thing for me, but it was really exciting. We were out at Stonewall—it was me and my two best friends, Cecilia and Crystal. Crystal and I decided to make out on the dance floor at Stonewall in the middle of one of our favourite songs, just as friends. But it instantly made us just stop in time, in a way. And we both felt it at the same time—that we had this connection that had nothing to do with my or her gender.
Crystal is incredible. Some people would describe her as more of a masculine girl than a feminine one. She’s the beer-drinking, Jim Beam-drinking, footy-watching kind of girl.
When my mum noticed that Crystal and I had first started to get together, I think she was really relieved. Everyone that was coming to our wedding could see how in love we were. They certainly thought it was a huge strength of ours—the fact that we were a bit of an unorthodox relationship.
‘You want me to love you? Because evidently, I don’t.’ (Laughter)
The fact that Crystal and I are separated has absolutely nothing to do with me being bisexual. I actually really like this script. Yeah, it’s just a little close to home with the whole Crystal thing—you know, estranged wife.
Every single person has always gone, ‘Ohhh, the bisexual thing,’ and kind of looked at me with this pitying look, like, ‘Oh no, you just couldn’t convince her in the end, could you?’
‘I’m not saying I’m not in love with you. Don’t tell me about my world. At least you have a mother. Don’t bullshit me. Don’t fuckin’ bullshit me. I don’t love you.’
It isn’t just a penis or vagina that you’re attracted to—it’s someone’s mind, but it’s even so much more. We were okay then.
I’m not straight enough, though. But when am I ever? (Laughs)
I don’t know why we find bisexuality such a strange concept or hard to accept.
‘I’m blaming, I’m blaming, I’m blaming, I’m blaming.'”
Video by Q Life
