I have been drawing since I could pick up a pencil.
I felt worthless in primary school. When I was being bullied, art was the only anchor I had.
But then I started high school and made some great friends.
And then there came a time when I had to figure myself out. For me, it was like looking in a mirror and being confused.
I started researching and discovered gender dysphoria; it’s feeling like you’re in the wrong body and being incredibly unhappy with your birth gender.
Mentally, you’re one gender, but your body is the opposite of that — so it creates dysphoria, a feeling of unease and discomfort.
Something just clicked when I found that definition.
I broke down. There was a moment of dread.
But it also felt better to know there’s something to describe the way I feel.
At first, I felt broken. But I found supportive friends online who loved art like I do, and some great friends in my town.
I’ve already done some social transitioning; cutting my hair helped me feel less confused when I look in the mirror.
I plan to go on hormones and do some of the surgery. The rest is kind of scary.
Now I live with my boyfriend. I’ve liked him since before I went through all this and he’s pretty chill about it all.
He calls me Eli. It makes me feel great.
The future feels overwhelming but exciting. I want to be able to animate, bring my characters and stories to life and make games from them.
People have told me that my art means a lot to them. I want to use my art to help other people.
I want people to know that trans people are people, too. I’m still the same person. I’m just trying to be more myself.
I didn’t transition to offend anyone, I did it to feel better about myself.
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